I got hugged by a homeless guy on my way to my car

Yep, you read that right, hugged not mugged. He was nice, sober and clean. He walked up to me, shook my hand, and said let me tell you 3 things to remember in life. Think before you speak. Think before you act. And don't look down on homeless guys like me, because you don't know our story. He was very nice and we talked for a bit, he asked if I was married and if I had kids. What I did for a living. When I told him, he said you went to college for that didn't you. I said yes, he said your smart. He then looked at me and said, you don't look like you come from money, you worked your way through college didn't you. I said that and student loans, and I'm still paying on those. I handed him some money before I left and he gave me a hug. Said I was one of the few who would listen to him and didn't just brush him off as another homeless bum.

It was one of the best hugs I've gotten in a while...I think because he truly meant it. It made me feel really nice, and was a wonderful way to end the day.

A week later

I feel much better. Work is much much much better. I am back on track and my projects are going nicely. I got closure on my wondering whether the guy I had been seeing would or would not be trying to work things out with his wife (they were supposed to be getting divorced because she cheated on him, I thought that the divorce was a non-changing decision, I was wrong - note to self: only date guys who's divorce papers are signed, sealed and delivered)

So now what...short work at week :). Date on Friday night with what seems to be a really nice guy. I'm trying this whole online dating thing, E-Harmony, Yahoo Personals, you guys know the drill. I don't get out a lot to meet people so this works well for me, I think, well at least I hope. We'll see how it goes.

Tonight me and my daughter went to the drive in and saw Santa Claus 3. I almost feel asleep, not recommended if you are looking for an adult movie to enjoy, but if the kids want to see it, take them, they will enjoy it.

Life moves on and so do I. La La La :)

Alone

That one word describes how I have felt the last few days. I thought I was handling everything well...boy was I wrong. The end of this week has been pure hell on me. Two tearful breakdowns on the boss because I have been sucking at my job lately (thankfully I have a wonderful boss who lays down the law and comes up with a plan to help me overcome it, then asks me what is wrong otherwise and lets me get it all out of my system).

The person I had attached myself to after my divorce, I don't think will be there anymore, not in the way he has been for the past while. He has his own issues and things he is working through, and I'm pretty sure they are leading him in the direction he needs to go, unfortunately, its in the opposite direction from me. I wish him all the luck in the world with what he is going through.

So for the first time, I am actually having to deal with this alone. That is a scary word and I don't like it one little bit. I'm a person who likes to be happy, to help others, to be surrounded by friends, but being an hour or more from all but 3 or 4 of my friends makes that kind of hard. Those friends that are close have been through recent life changes (aka - new baby) so there time and availability are limited. None of which I am complaining about, just saying.

My family is there, but its not what I need. I need someone who will let me cry on their shoulder with no judgment on what decisions I have made. Someone who will offer advice, and not get mad when I don't take it. Someone to just lay on the couch with and watch tv.

I guess I'm longing for what I had. The comfort of knowing there is someone at home that's got your back no matter what, that will welcome you with a hug no matter what has happened.

So now I sit here in the dark, alone, watching tv, debating whether I want to bother fixing something to eat, and wondering, when will I stop feeling alone.

Tomorrow I will wake up and start trying to find my feet in the office again. Become what so many want me to be. Maybe the refocusing will help me, or maybe it will just distract me, who knows.

All I know is, I hate the word alone.

Says it all

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Today we vote to decide the best direction for our country for the next 4 years or so...and what is CNN's breaking news.

Brittney and K-fed are getting divorced due to irreconcilble difference.

How sad is that....

Start 'em young, that's what i say

Need your help...

Hey guys,

I know I have a limited readership. Ok so maybe limited is inflating it by quite a bit, but anyway...

For those of you reading this, please check out this link: http://chris.quietlife.net/2006/10/31/raining-cats-and-dogs/ and this link http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/Claudia_Nunez/index.html

We are trying to help keep this woman from being deported. The reason, she will have to leave her two children behind, both U.S. citizens. I'm not going to give the full story here. The links above provide it. The thing is we only have today left to get people to sign the petition, so please think about it!

Everything has a gender....

1) Ziploc Bags are Male, because they hold everything in, but you can see right through them.

2) Copiers are Female, because once turned off; it takes a while to warm them up again. It's an effective reproductive device if the right buttons are pushed, but can wreak havoc if the wrong buttons are pushed.

3) A Tire is Male, because it goes bald and it's often over-inflated.

4) A Hot Air Balloon is Male, because, to get it to go anywhere, you have to light a fire under it, and of course, there's the hot air part.

5) Sponges are Female, because they're soft, squeezable and retain water.

6) A Web Page is Female, because it's always getting hit on.

7) A Subway is Male, because it uses the same old lines to pick people up.

8) An Hourglass is Female, because over time, the weight shifts to the bottom.

9) A Hammer is Male, because it hasn't changed much over the last 5,000 years, but it's handy to have around.

10) A Remote Control is Female. Ha! You thought it'd be male, didn't you? But consider this - it gives a man pleasure, he'd be lost without it, and while he doesn't always know the right buttons to push, he keeps trying!